Life is painful.I know. I know that who left you are the ones who told that they wouldn't. Those number of people you trust keeps reducing.You never stop wondering why you are being missed out in all their plans.You feel unworthy.You feel left out.You feel unloved. You feel lonely. You are suicidal.You tell someone you trust about how you feel and they don't care.So you started to say "I am okay".You are depressed.Something dark in your head constantly tells you to give up. But you don't.But it hurts inside and that's how you have begun to cut yourself.Wrist,thighs or just wherever no one can see. Anything that's sharp could do its work. It stings in hot shower. Wearing full sleeves in summer and man,you can't wear jeans sometimes. So you just say " wasn't in mood to dress up!'. It got that simple to cover up.So you got addicted.You hurt your skin because they hurt you.I get it.Trust me.I do.
But when you are holding that sharp thing, and gonna let yourself bleed,who is wining? You or your darkness.You are letting your problem take over you. Then it becomes you.It will start controlling you.It will trigger you to cut yourself again and again for the smallest of the smallest issue that you could handle before that one cut.You will eventually forget what it is to be strong because you thought that you found an escape. That's how you began to fool yourself.That's how you lost yourself.
Do you want this to happen?
Stop playing a victim role in your own life... Start valuing yourself.Start over. You are any day more important to yourself than others.Start believing in yourself.stop expecting too much from others. they are humans too.Accept the reality.Then make the magic.Stop overthinking.You are going through some problem that doesn't even exist. Start doing what you wanted to do.keep yourself occupied with your passion.That's how you master your passion.If you are so desperately searching for love, first go give your love in orphanages or old age homes.Trust me you will feel much better after that because you received the purest form of love than never before. Do something/anything that's making you happy.Your life doesn't become any good by thinking about how bad it is.GO.Fly.Be better than yesterday.
